Why this blog?

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When I was 15 years old I got a journal at a Christmas gift exchange.  It was pink with little glitter lines across it.  I'll post a picture. 09-02-2012 sm I still have it.  What started that day was a habit some might describe as compulsive.  I love to write.  I am a visual processor and I always will be.  I wrote everyday for over 15 years.  Hmmm... I might have just identified one more reason I have carpel tunnel!  I have dozens of filled journals!  I still love to write, but I don't do it as much.  Often times I have to make a list or write out what I'm thinking about to get it out of my head.  Hmmm... I think I may have just identified one of the reasons I can't sleep! 

This blog is just a continuation of a compulsive habit I formed many moons ago.  I have things in my head that I'm processing through.  I have chosen this blog instead of trying to write an entire book because I need to process in sections and if I try to write an entire book before I let anyone see it I will never finish.  So welcome to my world.

Right now the biggest process I'm in can aptly be called From Bullied to Beautiful.  I'm going to start at the beginning and work my way through it all one word at a time.  What you have to know is that from the first time I put pen to paper back in 1985 I have not liked myself.  I have lived since elementary school believing that I am not beautiful.  Recently the Lord has asked me to go back and "reclaim the years the locusts have eaten."  This means I need to go back and figure out how my world changed when the bullying started and then take back who I was meant to be.  Next week I will be 43 years old.  That's a lot of years, but what is ahead of me is what is important and I'm not going to let anymore time pass allowing those messages to continue running through my head.

And so it begins...

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